Rest

I have to admit that I have been lazy lately. I have been unmotivated. I have been hitting the snooze button, watching tv, and eating junk food. Living life at a slow pace. Very un-Maria-like. But I have to tell you, there has been a somewhat depressing state that has overcome Andrew and I.

I hear that's how all brides feel after their wedding…apparently grooms too.

We were on such an incredible pace for the last 5 months. Working 16-18 hour days and trying to do it ALL.  We had our heads down and knew what had to be done. We were productive and accomplished an awful lot on the house, the wedding, our businesses, and day jobs.

But you know what? I didn't really enjoy it. I felt overwhelmed and stressed 24/7. I missed summer. I felt like it was never enough. We have been needing this rest, this pause from life, more than we ever could have imagined.

And then the wedding came and went. It was perfect. It was everything and more. All the hard work seemed to have paid off. And then it all set in - this longing for it to keep going, for all our friends and family to stay in Rhode Island so that we could see them each and every day. This feeling that wow, something we spent 9 months planning is all the sudden finished, just like that.

We all the sudden had all this time on our hands this past month. No wedding meetings or hours on the phone with mom, no rushing around to get our house in perfect order, no long hours at work.  We had time to sleep. And eat meals at our table. And make plans with our Newport friends. And really talk. 

I woke up today somehow rejuvenated. Ready to be productive again. Ready to get back to a normal pace of motivation. Eager to continue checking house projects off the list and getting our lives back to busy times. I think that down time was a good thing. A time to reflect and just BE. Sometimes that is exactly what our minds and body need - time.

Ironically, today is one month from the day we said "I do".